Only the Sky.

Do you ever have days where you just have to get out? It's not even necessarily like you can't stand being with your family or at your house or anything. I don't know how to explain it really, but I have days like that all the time. I just feel, and I feel huge. My mama always tell me I love harder than anyone she knows. Anyway, I have these days where I just feel something and the four walls of my house feel like they can't contain it. Like I just have to get out because only the sky can hold everything I feel because it's so to the brim. Only the sky can hold all my Shelby. (: I don't know if any of this is going to make sense. But today, like so many other days, I wanted to get out and be just me, with just the outside, and just feel.

And so? I did. And guess what? I don't regret it at all. I followed my feet out into the blustery Sunday afternoon. I pushed down to a spot I love by the ponds near my house, through this insane wind. I just love every second of being in a wind-storm. My crazy hair is licking at my face in every new gust, and I'm just. Happy. And whatever I feel that was almost too much is all good, because when I'm outside, it's not too much. It's in perfect balance with everything. Mmm, honestly, I'm just rambling. I just love being outside, because I feel so free with whatever I'm feeling, good or bad, and I feel so much like, me. And there was a minute there today, where I especially needed that. And it felt like everything just fell into place to let me have my moment. The thirsty deck under my dry feet, the way the wind played across the water and through the plants all around me, painting the perfect picture for me to observe, with my knobby knees pulled up under my chin. I just feel so much better. The outside is like a friend to me, you know? I can honestly say it's been my best, and always my most reliable.

And even now that I'm home, I just look out my window, and I can see little pieces of me scattered everywhere. I'm everywhere outside and under the sky, and outside and the sky are everywhere inside of me. And that is one of the best blessings I know, one I'm grateful to my Heavenly Father for every single day.

And maybe? Maybe give this song a listen. It combines two of my most favorite things in the whole world. So. Happy Sunday!